at ourcozy tuesday & thursday nights hangouts at burbank near the AMC theatres"what's up? how are you, partner? " he blurted as he approached me with cuddly hug and tight touch of my right hand. caught in the moment, i was surpised he actually did that yet i did not show any of the emotions. i even saw di staring our way and giving me a teasing grin.
for the past few weeks i have been with hanging out with di, he's been tagging along. we ate out, we watched every movie there is ( oneof the perks with di is that she has hook ups to all the new movies at no cost at all), tell stories and shared many laughters. sometimes, i would noticed him staring down my way. he seemed to find great humor in my jokes. like on job interview, he kept asking me things about myself.
two days ago, 2 in the morning at the vietnamese pho at koreatown, di was so uncomfortable talking to me. and i asked her what was wrong with her. and she slowly informed me that her brother in law's friend wants to court me. and that friend was the same guy who hugged me at burbank the night before.
truth is, i'm clueless on what to utter. i'm flattered but i am also scared. i feel like i am not ready to be courted again. i have made many guy mistakes in my past that the thought of having a guy there wanting to get to know me better gives me the creeps. besides, i left my heart in "pasadena."
at the same time, i think about AB. i wish he tells me what he feels for me. i wish we can be an item. i wish he and i can finally be together. why is life like that? there are people who we tend to attract but they are NOT the people we want or like to be with?
i think i am getting to the point of giving up of liking the guy who does not seem to know i like him so much. yet, another guy is setting his own desires to like me...and yet i feel like he does not know me enough to like me.
Lord, help me. Lord, give me a sign!
posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:14 PM
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