" damn, why don't you just call me? why are you being such a coward?" i've been asking myself with such disappointment. wow. i'm talking to myself.insane, i know. truth is, he has not called. i wished secretly he calls me already. the long waiting game for him to pick up the phone and say what he feels is killing me. it's tearing me apart. it's breaking my heart into shattered pieces.
was i wrong? what did i ever do wrong? have i said something that offended him? i'm really clueless. i wish i knew. this sadness is drowning me.has he found someone knew? has he forgotten about his best friend? have i even cross his mind? ironic because he's constantly in my thoughts..circling my brains until it hurts and i can't stand the confusion in my head.
i wonder where in the world is he. and even through all of these annoying thoughts, i wondered if he ate or if he was wroking 16 hours straight again. right then, i have to remind myself not to care for him this much. honestly, i'm trying. i'm really pushing myself NOT to let him invade my weary brain.
why do i fall for people who are too blind to see how much love i have for them? i'm in denial? then why did he show he he cared when he should not have led me on in the first place? i'm confused, that's for sure.
why does love hurt? maybe part of loving is letting go. so tell me, is it time to let go? is he giving me the "exit" signs? i've been crying for days. and i'm bleeding inside. my heart is shattered. is it fixable? i have yet to discover that. sometimes, i believe that love is like a glass. sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
help!!! my heart is broken. it sucks for me because the heart is the only broken instrument that still works.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:42 AM
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