***note: for the confidential purposes, i changed the names of the personas included on this blog to protect their identity and privacy. but these are real events and real characters.
while she was on the phone with her exboyfriend "randy" whose calling all the way from the 808 state, the phone rang.
"hi! you're back from up north? "
who in the world is this? he sounded familiar but she couldn't exactly pinpoint who he was.
"who's this?" she asked.
"it's me! you don't remember me? your ex!"
ex? who? she only had couple of exes. it's fairly countable. she was on the line with "randy." the rest are not even worth remembering. so she dug her brains out speculating who in the world was calling and claiming to be one of her ex.
" it's me, "ab." (more info on AB: here) i was just kidding. is it possible to talk to you even for a minute? i really need your help."
gosh. how long has it been? she remembered him vividly. her summer fling: AB. she never envisioned she would talk to him again.
" look, i am dealing with issues right now. we don't have a place to stay. and i just need a place to sleep in to stay overnight. i'll tell you the entire story later. is it possible to see you? i just need to unburden my problems. i'll come see you at your pad."
"okay, i'll see you in a bit," she responded.
wait. did he say he was coming over. her parents was up. her siblings are, too. she must wait until past midnight to sneak him in. as much as she wanted to avoid him, she apprehended he needed her. so her past, or their past together were not important. he thirst for her company and help now and as a friend, she should be willing to attend on him and extend him a helping hand. at least for old times' sake.
as soon as the clock ticked at 12 am, it was midnight and like cinderella, he came in her door snuck him rushly and instructed him to hurriedly go to the way to her bedroom.
in her bedroom, while lying on the same bed, he was almost crying to her. he told her everything that has been going eversince their last time together last summer. the death of his father, the medical coverage that left them financially suriving, his anger towards knwing his father cheated on his mom and his father had kids outside of their family, his frustrations on school, his "girls" he claimed who had hurt him, his obligations of taking care of his mom, their situation being evicted at their previous apartment, their way of living now trying to find a place to stay, how he felt guilty about needing her after everything he has done to her, the nights they were together. as always, they talked about everything. no holds bar. no secrets are left unfolded.
now, it was about 3 am. she decided to share her bed with him. nothing sexual, she must say. it was just plain friends sleeping on one bed and it just happened they are of opposite sex. although, she mounted pillows in between them, he mangaed to held her close. she held him back because she figured he needed a comforting hug.
she did not know what to think. there was a history behind them and yet, she disregarded that. but his hugs meant so much. the way he touched her face gently and subtlely, the manner he smiled sparkingly at her, the method he ran his fingers slowly through her long hair, the fashion he smelled her scent... nozzling it from the back of her ear, or the process of how he held her close with his arms tighly wrapped around her waist.
and her. she oughted to pull him even closer but it was not an appropriate behavior. she coveted to not show any sexual gesture or acts of desire before it ended up into something they will both regret later.
she sensed astonishment and uncomfort around him. strange how he kept asking if she was okay even though they were in her bed in her bedroom. his concerns, his hugs became tighter, he decided to share blankets with her even if he was given a blanket for himself.and her, confused. what is he trying to do? he kissed her gently, more like a peck on her dried lips. he manipulated his fingers to swerve through her every curves. he caressed her all over.
yes, it felt sensual and wonderful. but it also must end.
"stop, " she said. " please..just.. just hold me and let's just go to sleep."
she knew without a doubt he wanted her. his body was too warm from a normal temperature. by the way he touched and held her, his yearning desires were evident. maybe, she felt the same way, too. after all, she was only human and she, too had imbalanced hormones. but she also didn't thought it was the right thing to do. so with every move he made, she contradicted and put an end into it. she pretended she was not interested but when asked if she was turned on, she answered she was. but with that, she added that she was not interested in reciprocating the gestures of passion he hinted on.
although, she hugged him close. they held each other close all night and morning long. they shared passionate kisses and quick smacks. at 5:30 am, she woke him up. it was time for him to leave because he needs to go to school while she needs to get prepared to go to school. once again, she had to figure out a way for an "operation: sneak him out"without any of the people in her house noticing.
at 6 am, mission accomplished. he was out and safe and no one even knew he was there. but where did that left them? was it just a night of needing someone? will it blossom into something else? she is contented with the friendship. she was fine without him. starge how it occurred couple of days before valentine's day while valentines blues haunted her. or was it because pain from her past went back again? does that mean anything to him?
she doesn't want to expect. she just ought for things to let it be t. but today at school , with only an hour worth of sleep, she thought of him. she wondered how he was. is he okay? is he sleeping well? is he even thinking of her liek she was worried of him?
if it's right time and right people.and if fate permits and the Lord allowed...why can't it be?
let fate take its course.
eh.
just let it be.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:48 PM
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