I'm in one of the most relaxing and most stunning place on earth. I booked this vacation weeks prior to have an alone time with my angel whose now in heaven. But the pain remained. The ache never goes away. It haunts and it's still leaves me great amounts of grief. How do you get over a loss? You served your life serving others and healing others and yet, you could not save your own flesh and blood? Everyday, I think abouty angel son. How he was peacefully laying there. I take great care of other people's children and God, why couldn't You give me my son alive? That's the ultimate sacrifice. When I have to give him back to You, my Lord because it was Your will and I have to accept that. But every mother mourns a loss of a child. Why would you make me go through such a painful And surprising labor only to find out my own child is dead and died in My womb? How do you heal that pain? How you make it go away? It does not. It stays there. It will hurt. It will tore you apart. It will slice you whole. It will bleed. And the wounds remain. But you just handle it. One year since you passed my angel baby son. And Mommy misses you. There was never a single moment when I didn't think of you, my baby son. Mommy is hurting. Mommy is in pain. But momma is trying to be strong for you my son. Guide me my angel son. Guide your Papa. Even though we are no longer together, always look after your Papa Simon/ Papa Hung. He needs you more than ever my Son. Always be with us, my baby son. It's not easy giving you back to God. But if that's God's will, I will remain faithful to God. Just let the pain go away and subside my baby son. Just give me adequate strength to get through my days. Keep Mama strong. Keep Mama faithful and keep Mama serve the Lord. Always guide Your Mama with her decisions and ambitions. Just never leave Mama's side, my baby. I miss you, my angel son. I would give up everything I have just to hold you and make you alive. And I continue to hurt. My heart continues to break. But life goes on regardless how much it tears me apart. I am not the same with you. I will never be the same without you my angel. Happy 1st birthday, my baby Simon Hung. Momma Len missed you dearly.

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